Thursday, August 11, 2005

June 11th 1998

“It’s about 2 AM and I can’t go to sleep. It seams I’ve been having many cases of insomnia. Yesterday I dreamt that my Hamster was eaten by the cats (again). I guess I worry too much...”


Isn’t funny the reasons we have sleepless nights when we’re young? Not to undermine the problems, some felt pretty serious and very real … that is, until you discover boys of course. But that’s later on. At this point I wasn’t really interested in boys, except for a couple of teenage idols at the time. I preferred to dream with boys I knew I would never have than to deal with ‘real’ boys.

There was one thing I remember liking a lot: children. I began babysitting early. It was a good source of income, and allowed by to have a little sense of autonomy. I don’t really recall what I did with my money, but I remember feeling good about it I also enjoyed the feeling of being in charge. When I was very little, I liked pretending to be either a mother, or a teacher. And later on, I got the chance to practice it with babysitting. And usually, I enjoyed it. I think I only regretted taking a job once.